If you can't love yourself, how the hell you gonna love somebody else!

 I'm lonely... 

I hate to admit it, especially because I have the very best friends and family that anyone could ask for, but when they all pair up with their significant others I wish that I had someone of my own. I realize that the reason for my loneliness is almost entirely due to my own lack of self-confidence and unwillingness to put myself out there. For most of my life, I've been content to be one of the guys, the confidante and best friend but never the romantic interest. If I didn't put myself out there I had no chance of getting hurt. Even when in a relationship, I was not confident to be myself and would hide behind my walls because I never truly believed that anyone would love me just for myself. This sabotage seems to be the worst because looking back I realize that I've not only hurt myself but others as well and that breaks my heart. I've had a life-long struggle with my own self image and it has probably cost me a lot of happiness, but I've finally come to a place where I realize that I have a lot to offer and I deserve to be happy so I need to make a change. 

As a wise woman once said, "If you can't love yourself, how the hell you gonna love somebody else." So from this day forward, I'm making a resolution to think more positively, ignore that inner voice and learn to love myself! My goal is to gain enough confidence to put myself out there and find the person that is right for me, to accept that he may be Mr. Right Now instead of Mr. Right and that's ok, to muster the strength to stand up for myself and to never settle for anything less than perfect, and to accept the fact that if someone can't love me for exactly the person that I am then they aren't worth my time and energy. So let the transformation begin!!